What a miracle!

Quote from the movie "Miracles From Heaven":

"We constantly wait in anticipation for a miracle to happen in our life, unaware that the miracle is actually life itself."

Yesterday, I witnessed the great miracle of birth.  I am in awe of the great and mighty power of God.  The birth of a child is wrought with great physical pain but it quickly subsides when Mama sees the miracle that was formed in her body.  The emotional joy that Mama feels in indescribable.  I have felt this pain and I have felt this joy.  The pain goes away, but the joy remains.  

On December 2nd at 4:46 pm, I became a Gamma. Everyone keeps asking how, so here's the scoop. :) After my divorce I met a man and his daughter.  Both had been through a tragic loss. Billy's wife and Taylor's mama had passed away after a motorcycle crash. The daughter, Taylor, was 19 years old.  She was immature, and loud, and spoiled.  Just being honest. :) The long and short of it was I fell in love with her.  It was if she was my very own daughter.  There were times she raged at me, cried in frustration with me. She even called me "that woman" one day.  It rolled right off my back because the mama in me kicked in.  I knew what Taylor needed and that was a stable role model.  I always stood up for Taylor and put her first and I always will.  Some people say it's weird, but I say it's a God given motherly LOVE! Standing up for Taylor didn't always make me popular with Billy, Britt, or Peggy's friends, but I did what was best for her and I will never apologize for that. Things didn't work out for Billy and I, but God had a plan.  Maybe the plan was to place someone in Taylor's life that could guide her. Who knows? What I do know is that I love that girl with a love that only a mother knows.  Taylor and I are close and I thank God for that.  She has matured and I KNOW that she is going to be an excellent mama.  I am so proud of her.  Yesterday, I watched her fight excruciating pain. And then, I saw the JOY! 

I can never replace Peggy, Taylor's Mama. I don't want to, but I can share the love in my heart.  I love you Taylor Sullivan. I am so excited that God put us together, and I am proud to be Harper's Gamma.

Psalm 139:13-16 NIV

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body.  All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."